"When my husband [Carl Sagan] died, because he was so famous and known for not being a believer, many people would come up to me — it still sometimes happens — and ask me if Carl changed at the end and converted to a belief in an afterlife. They also frequently ask me if I think I will see him again.

Carl faced his death with unflagging courage and never sought refuge in illusions. The tragedy was that we knew we would never see each other again. I don’t ever expect to be reunited with Carl. But, the great thing is that when we were together, for nearly twenty years, we lived with a vivid appreciation of how brief and precious life is. We never trivialized the meaning of death by pretending it was anything other than a final parting. Every single moment that we were alive and we were together was miraculous — not miraculous in the sense of inexplicable or supernatural. We knew we were beneficiaries of chance… That pure chance could be so generous and so kind… That we could find each other, as Carl wrote so beautifully in Cosmos, you know, in the vastness of space and the immensity of time… That we could be together for twenty years. That is something which sustains me and it’s much more meaningful.

The way he treated me and the way I treated him, the way we took care of each other and our family, while he lived. That is so much more important than the idea I will see him someday. I don’t think I’ll ever see Carl again. But I saw him. We saw each other. We found each other in the cosmos, and that was wonderful.”

— A Druyan

a memory once threatened to pull the stars out of your sky, before you no longer took solace in forgiveness, before you were broken enough to choose yourself.

you set yourself on fire to watch him burn, and were surprised to find salvation in the light. he is ash. you are a force of nature.

falling is hard on the knees
though it was running that ruined yours
in your pursuit of happiness
in your attempt to arrive at yourself

there are truths we know, but are afraid to speak, for a word is the worst manifestation of a feeling. a predetermined series of letters cannot wholly touch, cannot wholly serve as substitute for the overwhelming pounding in our heads, for the overwhelming pounding in our hearts.

you are numbers. weight. height. atm pin. credit score. credit card number. phone number. social security number. forty-six minutes after eight pm. 

you are supposed to be art.